Wednesday.05.November.2025 16:16 | boxy | update: dad 4

he says he's feeling better, but i think he just wants to go home and tough it out there. that is a new problem for a new time. or it should be; a bridge to burn later. that was the plan. or so i thought. dad's case manager at the rehab place let [sister] and [step mom] know that they're going to keep him no later than tuesday, 11 nov. we were under the impression he would be there three weeks, starting on monday, 27 nov. [step mom] freaked out, worrying nonstop. "what do i do if he falls again. i'm also 80. i have my own sicknesses. do we put him in an assisted living home? what do i do? what can you do?" legitimate concerns that can be addressed at a later date. i went up there last night for a couple hours. he's got his regular at-home nest: comfy chair, blankey, turner movie classics. we just traded one thing for another, truthfully. sister and her husband were there as well. they took off around 7:30, i stayed until 8 or so. when i got home around 9, sister text me: "well. just to let you know. i just had a monster fucking meltdown on [step mother]. because one too many people have been leaning on me an expecting me to fix things. i'm fucking donw for the time being. i've never demanded much of [husband], but i demanded he drive me home tonight. i'm sorry for the fallout. i'm not ok." "there was a lot of crying and yelling from me. it's symptomatic of a much bigger problem with depression. what triggered it was dad wondering about thanksgiving like the world is normal." "that fucking got me roiled. the i mget back to [dad's house] and [step mom] hits me with the fact that they're talking about sending him home next week [11 nov] and 'what are we going to do' and 'i can't take care of him' and the fucking home health and 'i can't bathe him' and 'i can't take care of him if he falls' and 'what are we going to do?'" "i lost my shit on [step mom]. i lost my shit in general. and now, in her mind, it's all about thanksgiving. fuck this whole fucking situation. if she wants to stick him in a home, it's on her. he will be dead in a month from a broken heart because he would rather see [cat] than anyone else." "i feel like this is her parachute. she wants him in and home and she's trying to manipulate me into agreeing." i said i thought the plan was to address everything in a week or two. "it was. [step mom] has worried me to fucking death about it. the rehab case manager came and dropped the bomb that they can't keep him past the 11th. so she ramped up the worry. and i'm fucking fine with it. this is not my area of expertise (she is a NICU nurse). i don't fucking know what the options are. i don't know where we go from here. but i'm goddamned sure that her anxiety and pushing it on me has fucking broken me." "if there is a thanksgiving, i might not be welcome. it was awful and i tried apologizing, but she threw it back on me." i say what did she way when you attempted to apologize? "first off, she wouldn't look at me. and then told me that hopes i find whatever it is i'm looking for. and that i shouldn't worry about thanksgiving. and a bunch of other shit like i just need to let this roll off my back. which led to another meltdown. i just fucking left. we're about halfway home." "i would have accepted a 'this is hard on everybody. go take care of yourself.' but nobody gives a shit about me until it affects them." family drama. [sister] was the golden child for most of her life. i was the black sheep; not a total fuckup, but experienced a lot of stupid life shit in a very short amount of time. it's only now she's experiencing what i have already done, over twenty years ago. [dad] and [step mom] only contact me when they want something. fix my computer, fix my tv, can you download XYZ movie/show. i need you to put up xmas decorations over here. i want to be the "good son" and do whatever they ask, but i'm a grown-ass man with grown-ass problems. i want this to be calm. but it is not. dear diary.

Sunday.02.November.2025 17:00 | soc | Onery Old Men And The Clouds They Yell At

My father, like the rest of ours, are getting up in age and to the point where their arrogance can now be a harmful thing. My father while understanding he can't stuff like he used to do, will still try in a way to do things even guys in their 50's "might" have trouble with. Case in point, today my dad was working under his car to work on some brake stuff without asking for me help. I went thru the whole heart stuff with my dad when he was 55 and thanks to medication and yearly check ups, its been good. I myself had a scare about 10 years ago where I had radiation dye put into my bloodstream to check me out. They never found anything but knowing in what I know now, I must've pulled muscle in my back when I was shadow boxing without any warm ups or stretching. Seems eating eggs regularly now is fine tho.

Sunday.02.November.2025 11:19 | boxy | idea

Sunday.02.November.2025 11:19 | boxy | update: dad 3

the hospital got him moved over to the rehab place. brand new building. there were two other patients on the wing, the rest were empty. all the nurses i talked to were exhibiting the utmost professionalism, even with my dad being an ornery old man voicing his opinion on the quality of the food. they were giving him whatever in the hospital because they had microscopic regulation of his medicine and insulin. at the rehab place, the doc had put him on a diabetic diet: brown rice, baked chicken (plain), steamed carrots (unsalted), pears (fruit cup, not from concentrate). he ate the pears. said the rice tasted like nothing. well, yeah lol. comparing last sunday to now, he's doing a lot better. but that is relative. everyone is on edge, eyeballing him like a hawk when he says he's got to pee. the act of getting up, all the motion from sat down to standing, has been an ongoing problem for many years. i fully believe it is the limiting factor as to whether or not he leaves the rehab place and goes back to his house or is transferred to a private old folks home/the va. there is a sunroom at their place. it's where his new comfy chair is and we mounted a 60something tv down there. really nice; calm. you have to step down into it from the main living room. double-opening french doors on both sides of the fireplace. [ S U N R O O M T V ] [DD] [fireplace] [DD] [ L I V N G R O O M ] there's no place to mount anything because it's all open. prior to the last week, we had gotten him to use just the regular living room. the tv (an older vizio) isn't as big or good at the one in the sunroom (some fuckyou huge samsung); this matters a lot to him. their house is like a museum. old people antiques are everywhere. no real room to move around. dad has three places: chair, bathroom, kitchen. so. navigating a museum, while unable to mount things, and a sedentary lifestyle for the last twenty or so years has finally culminated with a panic attack. don't get old don't get sick don't die

Friday.31.October.2025 14:38 | boxy | update: dad 2

sat with him on thursday. he's feeling a lot better, but still weak. i would imagine so after surviving a stroke. today they're moving him over the rehab place a town over. brand new building; opened sometime at the beginning of the month. he's probably going to receive the best possible care/therapy. the conversation about putting him into a home or not is one for another day. one day at a time, at this point. as i was leaving the room yesterday, dad said through crazy broken speech "i appreciate what you and [sister] are doing." i said "of course. you can count on us." then i fucking broke down in the hallway

Wednesday.29.October.2025 13:20 | boxy | update: dad

he got a MRI done on tuesday. we found out it was not two "mini" strokes. it was a singular big one with seven smaller pieces, like a buckshot blast. the heart/valve misfiring part is true. add in a lifetime of eating fried food which has caused a blockage somewhere. blockage caused blood cells to get stuck and ultimately coagulate/clot. something cause the clot to dislodge, break apart, and shoot into his brain (stroke). the bigger part hit his motor/speech skills area and the other smaller pieces went wherever. so.. he's doing "better" but that is relative; he's alive. understands what happened. understands what we're saying, but cannot formulate the words to respond. entire right side of his face and body were affected. we're in the process of getting him admitted to a "full service" physical and speech therapy rehab place where they will keep him until they are satisfied he can communicate and be mobile. his wife is 90lbs soaking wet and couldn't lift a sack of peanuts if her life depended on it. getting veteran affairs involved as well. for what, i am unsure. sister, step-mom, and i are taking turns - morning/day/night - sitting with him.

Monday.27.October.2025 10:15 | boxy | PSA: get your heart checked

dad is 81. before all this, he was having trouble walking; shaky. has a cane, but is stubborn and doesn't use it much. on saturday, he had two TIA (Transient Ischemic Attack) "mini-strokes" and fell, busting up his arms on the way down. it's a stroke all the same, the mini designation means it can happen in rapid succession, more than once. if you have one, there's a very high chance you're going to have another. by some miracle, his older sister was there. she couldn't pick up a sack of peanuts let alone a 250lb man. she called the fire department to pick him up and get him into a chair. my sister, on a daytrip to houston, was in a HEB grocery store looking at coffee. she said she called dad to find out which brand he liked and she would get him some. dad said "i think i better tell you this.. i fell in the bathroom." sister immediately called me. i get over there and the ambulance and fire dept is on scene. dad is in a chair with EKG probes hooked up. this was the aftermath of the second fall. they get him loaded onto the gurney and say they're taking him to [local hospital] emergency room. after the crowd left, my wife and i got him a bag of clothes and toiletries together. then i do a once-over of the scene.. evidently he was in the shower, went to get out, had the stroke which affected his entire right side, couldn't lift his right leg, tripped, and hit everything on the way down. this was the first one. the second hit shortly, like maybe 30 minutes, afterward while he was taking a piss. hit everything on the way down again. fucked up his arms badly. "skin tears" is what they called it. i get to the emergency room and they've got him hooked up to all manners of probes and tubes. they're drawing blood cultures and are pumping him with a hardcore antibacterial called "zosyn". the last time he had a stroke, sometime last year, he had an unchecked UTI which ultimately went septic, got into the bloodstream and hit his heart. this time, it is also an unchecked UTI which was close to going septic. the emergency room was treating him for the UTI and a hospitalist came in to tell us that, they were getting him a room ready, and had not done a CT scan at that moment to verify. when i had called sister to relay the situation, she was fucking pissed at this knowledge. she said they should have done the CT immediately and treated the entire situation as a stroke. she has said she is going to "take this to the top so that it doesn't happen to anyone else." meaning the hospital could lose its "Comprehensive Stroke Center" certification. there's not a fine or anything involved, but reputation could be damaged. in turn, causing a loss of revenue. the hospital is a business and it could look incredibly bad on them. sister said they should have immediately administered "Activase" which could have dissolved the clot to restore blood flow to the brain. this was not done when he arrived at the ER. she did not have access to his digital chart to confirm, however.. we're working on getting this. she is extremely not pleased. a sedentary lifestyle - doing fuck-all and sitting in his comfy chair to watch westerns - contributed to this greatly. after he contracted china AIDS (covid), he received "valvular regurgitation" where the heart valve doesn't fully close after a beat. instead of 1 (open/close) 2 (open/close) 3 (open/close) 4 (open/close) it is now 1 (open/close) 2 (open/close) 3 (open/close half way) 4 (open/close) the half-closed valve has allowed blood to pool and coagulate over time. he takes a baby aspirin at night and that is very likely the thing that saved him. they currently have him on some hardcore anti-coagulant blood thinners. the nurse said for him to be extremely careful to not blow his nose too hard as if he starts bleeding, they might not be able to get it to stop.. so. sunday morning, they did a panel of tests and CT scan, confirming it was two back-to-back strokes. right side was affected; speech is all fucked up. sister is a RN at a hospital in california. she's gone into "nurse mode" and may not be able to turn it off. advocating for patients is one thing; advocating for her own father which is a patient is going to do irreparable shit to her psyche, i am convinced. fun weekend. having to come to terms with a lot of things really, really fast. get you a full physical done with all the bloodwork possible, please.

Saturday.25.October.2025 10:33 | boxy | valve is so based

Saturday.25.October.2025 10:05 | boxy | also, this

>IGN i don't care

Saturday.25.October.2025 09:56 | boxy | chrome sucks shit

• Family View Anti-Prompt extension (google|github) i have family view enabled on the steam application. on the steam website in chrome, there's an authentication dance and chrome interferes. i just want to check out a game go away google

Friday.24.October.2025 21:43 | boxy | hot off the presses

meme them until they cry, then meme them for crying

Tuesday.21.October.2025 19:09 | boxy | new caddy server

• github.com/caddyserver/caddy/releases would recommend if you can't be assed to do [thing]

Monday.20.October.2025 22:21 | boxy | canada.exe

• boards.4chan.org/pol/thread/519404560

Monday.20.October.2025 16:25 | boxy | A R C _ R A I D E R S

Monday.20.October.2025 16:01 | boxy | TWITCHCON WAS A SHITSHOW

lol imagine that

Wednesday.15.October.2025 20:09 | boxy | collargate 2025

evidently, if you're of the CORRECT OPINIONS and/or HOT over at twitch, you can get away with anything. and clout demons will run defense for you. extremely believable. normies getting on the fucking internet was a massive mistake.

Wednesday.15.October.2025 19:16 | boxy | this was eight years ago

don't let the journos lie to your face >antifa doesn't exist >it's just an idea >there are no leaders they're ancaps at the very most

Monday.13.October.2025 14:37 | boxy | a few more changes

but it's final final i've never owned top of the line computer shit, ever. it was SUPER uncomfortable spending $650 alone for the cpu/mobo. the cpu/mobo combo did include a "MSI MAG Coreliquid A13 360 Black" AIO, but i ain't using it. too many friends in the past have called when their cpu thermal'd out because either the radiator fan died or the pump was kill due to sediment in the lines.

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